So many things have happened that i cannot bother to write down in this dusty old journal.XD Oh well...

My birthday have passed, 4 days ago.Nothing really happens.I got my birthday cake yesterday.Also, i hate myself for knowing the ending of And Then There Were None aka Ten Little Indians by Agatha Christie before i even read it.

I followed my favorite chinese series Royal Tramp(every 8:30 pm Monday till Friday on 8tv) for more than a month already.I really really like it.I want to buy the translated novel in which the series is based on, The Deer and The Cauldron.

DREAM DIARY:
Recently, i can recall back dreams that i have.I don't know what my dreams really means anyway.

7 May
-I met my old friend(finally, i remember how she look like..it has been a long time.i do miss her)
-both of us went to a class that teach a subject called Reality(really!).
-then, we went to a bookstore (i recognized the bookseller).I bought twice.During the first transaction, i bought lot of books.Then, i want to buy more.During the second purchase, i don't have enough money so i cancel most of my order.The check out counter has many kinds of candies.
-then, we walked into a classroom filled with big aquarium that has a big blue fish that swims really fast.I was amazed.I remembered saying "Oooh wow the fish...wow ohhh"
-then, she try to attack me with a snake and she chased me around the class.The dreams then ends.

8 May
- I went to some school(not my school).It has busy atmosphere but i didn't really remember seeing other people
-I attend an event in the school hall but i really did'nt know what the event is but the school hall was heavily decorated.
-My best friend greet me and she sit on a chair next to me that already has a woman(don't remember who) sitting on it.
-The woman become annoyed and left us alone

Last night i had a dream where i hitchhiked a ride.I got dropped off near this posh golf country club but i didn't enter there and continued walking to a town and then, i remembered exploring the town till i arrived at a quiet and dark manga store.The dream ended when i paid for a bunch of manga.I wonder what could it mean?

I went to PC Fair today with my dearest best friend(i rarely met her though)..I bought a cheap mp3 player then we went to Kinokuniya to look around.
Finaaaaaaaaaaaaaally....i bought a licensed manga...lol.I bought Yume Kira Dream Shoppe by Aqua Mizuto(Shoujo Beat)..I didn't dare to buy any shoujo manga series(afraid not able to complete the collection)

It just took me a tiny conflict within to make me realize that i am very dependent on my faith.

Oh i love Humming Urban Stereo.Their music is so awesome.In their first album, they have song titled Scully Doesn't Know and in their second album, they have song titled Mulder Does Know!!Aaaah i love HUS.<333.

Here is quote of KBS World about HUS:

"Humming Urban Stereo uses the mere trifles of everyday life as it’s material for creating music. The band was created by Lee Jeereen, a 24-year-old man who is inspired by familiar things in life such as books, movies, food and friends. Thus, the lyrics of the band’s songs include lines from French movies. Sometimes, the songs are named after the title of a book by a Japanese poet that the composer had enjoyed reading. The ideas of kitsch-style by Lee Jeereen seem to lack seriousness but many times, include fun thrills. Listening to Humming Urban Stereo’s music, one naturally reflects into his or her own life. The band’s music can be simplified as something like a salad of mixed musical genres like bossa nova, acid jazz, lounge and house. The band’s music is light, smart and delightful."

Lessons learned:

-Shopping for books should never be rushed.I chose The Ladies of Grace Adieau and Other Stories by Susanna Clarke eventhough at the moment i stepped into the bookstore, my mind set on buying Harry Potter and Chamber of Secrets(adult version).The cries of lil bro doesnt really help..but i dont mind.The story is interesting..

-Dont read Stephen King's novels while listening to Abba or any disco music.It will turn the book into Scary Movie.

Here i am, waiting for the time to be 12 am.After 12 am, i will be 16 years old although i felt like im going to be 17.This feeling might be caused by my late birthday.I felt sad for getting older and the fact that my birthday won't be celebrated in the way i wanted it to be makes me sadder.I always wanted to have a birthday party but i dont have the friends to fill it(my friends lives far away) and my parents didn't show any excitement about my upcoming birthday.They gonna buy a cake as usual though.I just wished there will be something more..since im their oldest child and only daughter after all..

Today is Almost Friday 13th day!Almost unlucky, eh since 13th fell on Thursday this month!

Im loving this manga, Superior by ichtys!!The latest scanlated chapter is kya kya..

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Yesterday, i went out with my old friend to visit the PC Fair in KLCC.I didnt buy anything but i brought home lots of promotional flyers and a balloon given by Maxis(my little bro love it very much :D).I took this chance to buy somethin from Kinokuniya(at last!i always didnt have enough money to buy any books from there everytime i visited this large and fascinating bookstore).I bought The Complete Adventures and Memoirs of Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle for RM 38.15 and the latest issue of TeenVogue for RM 16.00.I also wasted RM 12 on food at Rasa foodcourt and RM 5 on transport.I had to admit this is my first time spending my own money(collect it little by little from school lunch money + hari raya money + babysitting bro) rather than asking my mom to expense my trip(i usually got RM 20-30 only but this time i bring my own money which RM 80!:D heh.i am proud of myself..somehow @_@)

p/s: my legs is really hurt from walking.

I want to ignore all of this and convince myself that everything around me is not miserable but it failed, of course.

sigh

i always depressed after reading newspapers.thats why i rarely touch them.Thats why im on my computer a lot.I want to disconnect from the world and live a free ignorant and childish life.

of course, this is impossible.My birthday is coming up(23/12) and i am almost sixteen.Like my dad said, i cant live in my own world and ignore everything around me.He said i cant survive like this.This is very hard for me.

The path of owning licensed manga(made from real papers instead of digital data, i mean)is really rocky.Im now collecting money to buy a bunch of Shojo Beat manga i had been eyeing for(although, i already read some by downloading scanlations, the scent of real paper is unbeatable).I bet it feels really good to see beautiful covers on the shelf.

i'm so bored with my routines.i always want to ditch classes but it would be impossible because i dont like the wrath of my parents.im so sick of getting into bed early and wake up early just for school.i came home from school at 5:30 pm everyday.it is really tiring.will this end?and adult life is not too good too.

the only time i would feel diffrent is exam seasons.it is the only time i felt charged up.Why?Because it is a break from those tedious routines and timetables.and after receiving those results, all the high spirits would be gone.

Diffrent than Jane Eyre, Villette's ending is sad.The last chapter is too much and painted me blue but Charlotte really had done a good job.

"Goodnight Dr John; you are good, you are beautiful but you are not mine.Goodnight and God bless you!" quote said by Lucy Snowe to herself from Villette(novel by Charlotte Bronte)<-- i almost cried when Lucy Snowe said this although i already knew her love for Dr John is unrequited.I love this novel.

http://www.mediafire.com/?9gytmmmg1zm

This is the manga Otomen volume chapter 1...anywho come here should download it.:3

wtf i just read Otomen volume 1 chapter 1 scanlated..

IT IS REALLY GOOOOOOOOD..what is this warmth feeling...

wow.good shoujo manga do bring warmth and comfort.

;-; sob.so nice.